Friday, 27 January 2017

Straight Lines

Sweatshirt - Zara (here) // Skirt - Motel Rocks (similar) // Shoes- Nike via Asos // Jacket - Bershka (similar)

As a kid, I used to be really rigid. I walked the straight line. Corners, curves, dents? I didn’t know what those were. I was the typical goody-two-shoes, teacher’s pet, quiet, followed the rules. Basically I tried my hardest not to step out of line. The person I am now is soo far from the kid I was. Thinking back now, I don’t know what I was so scared of. Maybe that if I didn’t please one person, that the world would fall apart? Growing as a person meant that I learnt to let go a lot more and take more risks, however, last year I realised some of my rigidity still remained.

If you’re the kind of person that replies super quickly to texts, then you’re like me. And like me, you probably get really annoyed when you get snail-like responses and often find yourself asking, “did this person throw their phone off a cliff?”. It wasn’t until last year that I realised how much this got on my nerves. I was texting someone who was an INCREDIBLY slow texter (albeit this person was busy quite often) but it irked me every time I had to wait so long for a reply. Whenever it would irk me I would quickly let it go but it would happen again and a little dragon in me would breathe out the tiniest flame of irritation. I had to sit down and ask myself why did this always seem to annoy me? It wasn’t just happening with this one person but with a few other people I cared about as well. I eventually realised that this issue was not to do with any of these people but to do with myself.
I have always made an effort to reply quickly to messages. Mostly because I don’t want anyone to think I don’t care about them or that I disregard their existence (this fear stemming from a prior bad situation) and partly because I have an abnormal attachment to my phone (lol). Regardless, I was projecting this idea onto other people. Just because someone doesn’t reply quickly does not necessarily mean they don’t care. They could have their phone on silent, be in a meeting, be in the shower or a whole other myriad of circumstances. If someone really doesn’t care about you, you will know in the way they treat you and not just in what they say/ how they text. Eventually, I realised this aspect of my life was something I wanted control in and also something I had to shake. I had to stop being so rigid about this because it wasn’t benefiting me or anyone else. Obviously you are are right to be annoyed if the person hasn't responded in like a week (I would suggest that in this case cut them off because they actually don't care).
I’ve definitely rambled on but what I’m trying to say is, you need to look at the reasons behind why you do things, and if, like me, it’s something in your life you’re trying to control, LOOSEN UP and relax. You can’t control everything; sometimes you have to embrace the corners, curves and dents. Straight lines are not always as cool as they look on this outfit.  

1 comment :

  1. mehn...slow replies can really be annoying..that is one thing I hate so so much...I think I'll find it hard to change my mind on this one